Keeper

Sometimes....
Things happen.
 

Being Away

Being alone tonight isn't a pleasant experience. I know that everyone says that you should enjoy those time when you can just be by yourself, but i can't help but think sometimes that I would really like that special someone around. I'm i wrong about that? I mean I put my table away in my apartment not because I have a small space but because I didn't want to sit there and eat alone. I stay away from my home because I get tired of walking in and that person isn't there to say hello. I also know that there won't be anyone else coming in once i'm there. Don't get me wrong i don't need someone at home with me.. but you can't beat the feeling of knowing that there is someone special sharing this with you.
Okay moving on..
So I was away from my apartment for about a week. The longest ever for me. Besides that i wasn't in my home state. I wanted to get away this summer and despite my financial situation i've been able to do it more often than I thought i could. How was that possible. Even with the money i do have coming in and being behind in some bills I traveled quite a few times since the beginning of the year. I love it though, traveling soothes me. It gives me time to clear my mind or if not that then just get away from my troubles. Traveling i guess in one word is my therapy. :) To be able to see something new each day is a wonder. If i worked in travel would be great. Hmm, its a thought. Just a few thoughts today.

Busy Days...

Okay so i started this off really sappy which isn't something that I do. Yes I love the being with someone and the PDA and stuff. But, really just talking mushy and and sappy isn't me. Anyway, Whats going on people, today was one of those days where I planned. I don't work as of right now, so my days are spend researching jobs, keeping up my studies, and applying for positions in my area. But, somehow nowadays my day have become so busy that I wish that work was the only thing that kept me from house and home. Tomorrow i travel with my church to support out pastor as he speaks to the PAW conference. It will be my first time traveling with the our congregation ever. Besides that i've already been to Atlanta , Charleston, Jacksonville, and a few other places just in the last few months. I love to travel but i thought that working would give me the chance to do just that. But, it seems not working has opened up that opportunity even more. Next week I will find myself in Nashville, TN and then on to Kentucky. I think to myself if money weren't an issue i'm sure I would have been gone the entire summer. There is nothing like being on the road seeing new things, or being in a city for the first, second, or third time. Just a few things that I'm doing soon...

Loving YOU!

Loving u is like a summer breeze at night after a thunder storm. It's like watching that bright burnt orange sky warm with the sunrise.

Renewable love that keeps turning into something else as the days pass away.

....okay this isn't coming out the way I planned. I'm not this gushy feel good type of person. But, I love him and I deal with not being able to see where my feelings are reciprocated. I live each day knotting that he is on a different path in love than I am. At times I still wonder what if,yet I keep this to myself. Knowing him is enough and although i don't want to settle I will because I love this man and I always will.